The garden's too far overgrown
It's precisely why I won't come around
It took me way too long to realize
The fear of God was an easy way out
Spray a little bit of blood for the cameraman
That's never gonna let me down
Call it easy like a coin on a string
Just don't get back up for another round

I wanted for people to see me forgive you
More than I really want to forgive
To know I overcame what you put me through
And I won't have to sit anymore with it
I drank until I couldn't pretend I don't see you
And I got these rings hanging under my eyes
Never going to punch in our initials
Or make it right

I could have done a single good thing
But I let the weeds simply overtake it
I could have stopped that wheel from rolling
Over the both of us instead of it breaking

I don't know if I can't be angry
Because I never gave myself a chance to dig
And now I'm calling you a punchline
Every time I let myself slip

I wanted for people to see me forgive you
I wanted the power of just being seen
I wanted for people to know what I won't do
Rather than ask you what you really mean
I move until your own words fall out of my skull
And I'll paint my own X's over my eyes
Just make it easier for me
Even if you have to lie

I wanted for people to know I forgave you
But I never really want to learn to forgive
I gave you the currency that you need to
Carry on hurting everybody else with it
I guess I'm learning to mean what I'm saying
And I'm gonna look you in both of the eyes
Man it's a cheap coin but its the heaviest one we could find