Maybe once a week this year
I've been dreaming that I die
Bleeding out in public places
While the gunman walks outside
And I think I really hate it here
This faux-religious ploy
I'm always homesick, and maybe
Really that's the point

Watched Evangelion in a single afternoon
And couldn't stand it
You'd think wielding my depression
Like a weapon would be on-brand
Taking potshots at my friends
Who're keeping heads above their doubts
Life can't just be giving goodbyes
Until I'm out

Slowly swallowed by static
Headlights drowned out by the dark
Nobody changed a thing
We're just getting farther apart
I think I still want to be here
No matter how bad it's been
Remember how I said no one
Will ever speak for me again

Now the worst people alive
Who have coasted on forgiveness
Are leeching off my friends and family
Such an awful thing to witness
Like a savior or a vampire
Either way, invited in
Life's just paying penance
For when you slip

Slowly swallowed by static
Staying put until it's done
It all moves away faster
Than I could ever hope to run
I think I still want to be here
No matter how bad it's been
Remember how I said no one
Will ever speak for me again

Catatonic or just resting
I get them constantly confused
Terrified that every good time
Will be punctuated by bad news
I am the Black Cloud in your mirror
I will not blot out the sky
Not doing anything wrong per se
But not doing anything right
Get my bell rung every night

Getting swallowed by static
Headlights drowned out by the dark
Nobody changed a thing
We're just getting farther apart
I think I still want to be here
No matter what state I'm in
Remember how I said no one
Will ever speak for me again

But I am the ghost between the stations
I will be here until I'm not
It's all got to go somewhere
No matter how hard you fought

I think I still want to be here
No matter how bad it's been
Remember how I said no one
Will ever speak for me again