1. |
Penance
03:24
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Maybe once a week this year
I've been dreaming that I die
Bleeding out in public places
While the gunman walks outside
And I think I really hate it here
This faux-religious ploy
I'm always homesick, and maybe
Really that's the point
Watched Evangelion in a single afternoon
And couldn't stand it
You'd think wielding my depression
Like a weapon would be on-brand
Taking potshots at my friends
Who're keeping heads above their doubts
Life can't just be giving goodbyes
Until I'm out
Slowly swallowed by static
Headlights drowned out by the dark
Nobody changed a thing
We're just getting farther apart
I think I still want to be here
No matter how bad it's been
Remember how I said no one
Will ever speak for me again
Now the worst people alive
Who have coasted on forgiveness
Are leeching off my friends and family
Such an awful thing to witness
Like a savior or a vampire
Either way, invited in
Life's just paying penance
For when you slip
Slowly swallowed by static
Staying put until it's done
It all moves away faster
Than I could ever hope to run
I think I still want to be here
No matter how bad it's been
Remember how I said no one
Will ever speak for me again
Catatonic or just resting
I get them constantly confused
Terrified that every good time
Will be punctuated by bad news
I am the Black Cloud in your mirror
I will not blot out the sky
Not doing anything wrong per se
But not doing anything right
Get my bell rung every night
Getting swallowed by static
Headlights drowned out by the dark
Nobody changed a thing
We're just getting farther apart
I think I still want to be here
No matter what state I'm in
Remember how I said no one
Will ever speak for me again
But I am the ghost between the stations
I will be here until I'm not
It's all got to go somewhere
No matter how hard you fought
I think I still want to be here
No matter how bad it's been
Remember how I said no one
Will ever speak for me again
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2. |
Elvis
02:23
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Try to not hate living here
See my new niece grow up only through pictures
Probably get drunk again while I read Superman
Poring over the words like it's scripture
Then wake up and do it over again
Learn my life's just a brick through your window
Hope to God we're gonna be fine
Really hope we're gonna be fine
But I'm getting so used to hearing, "No"
Might lose the forest for the trees
If I fall, I really don't think you'll hear me
I was so full of shit before all of this
Well now I feel completely empty
Spend a week lost in albums made by my friends
Near the only thing that helps me feel rested
Hate myself for an hour for how angry I'm getting
Then feel worse for not being more effective
This really may be as good as it gets for a while
So try to be present
But I hear the bartender talk about his kids
In a way that makes me honestly jealous
All my hope's pretty gone
But the show must go on
So take a shot and hum along to some Elvis
I wanna stumble through your downtown again
I wanna get sad without thinking it's over
I wanna let down my guard
It shouldn't have to be this hard
For me to want to stay sober
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3. |
Maraca
03:27
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Shaking when you find that all the old songs are dark songs
Blood is leaking through the front door
James thinks he really heard something in the fog
If I thought it was true, I wouldn't be here anymore
A local gave a gift to him colored black and woodgrain
I guess it scared a few idiots
His parents said it wasn't gonna come home with him
Don't know what it is so assume it's insidious
Breathlessly trudge over the line of midnight
Just trying to keep my hands occupied
Not doing anything wrong per se but
Not doing anything right
If your intention was to only coast your way through the darkness
I think it's fair that it swallows you
But he swears to God he found something in the fog
I don't know anymore which one I'm talking to
Try to pin down when the switch gets made
It's more than a trick of the eye
Not doing anything wrong per se but
Not doing anything right
I've got the luxury to not feel loved right now
Some didn't make it alive
Not doing anything wrong per se but
Not getting anything right
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4. |
Veer
02:03
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I used to think me a hammer
And everything nails
Nowadays I hold nothing
Can't even handle myself
And nobody will see me
If I could just hit my stride
Put my life on the rails and I'll ride
Convulse back to life
Try to guess what it means
Twenty eyes staring daggers
Try hard to scream
I reach for the banks
As my body veers
Try remembering a record
From my college years
And a song about God
Is going to bring me to tears
Am I the last of my kind
Or is that how it appears
No more "Holy, Holy, Holy Lord"
We don't sing that song around here anymore
We don't sing that song around here anymore
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5. |
Punchline
04:40
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I can't hear what you call me
But I think you're a coward
And I see it the most in the way
That you hide behind God
Like you're damned to repeat me
But God doesn't bother to say
For the third time this year
I think I resent you
The captain goes down with the ship
I got too liquored up
And called you a punchline
The first time I let myself slip
You don't make it easy
To crawl out from under you
I still want to be here
But I don't know what else to do
I might survive the evening
Then live forever
But I just don't know if it's true
So just take it easy
It's the end of the world
I don't want to stay here
Just watching the edges all curl
Make it easier
To crawl out from under you
I still want to be here
But I don't know what else to do
I might survive the evening
And then live forever
Happy and perfect and new
So I guess we'll see if it's true
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